A few weeks ago, I posted online that I’d begun a personal self-journey to get into better shape and health.
Even though I would say right now, I’m proudly heading in the right direction. Since starting I’ve come to the realisation, by giving in on myself I’d gained weight but also lost touch with this blog which is something I am immensely proud of a once LOVED today. Recently, a blogger called Cassey Ho otherwise known as Blogilates has gone through a slightly similar venture as my own. A wish to change her reflection on her current outlook on life. Going on a journey to change herself physically but most importantly mentally. She achieved this, with a lot of hard work but also keeping a daily journal in the form of a blog post. Updating her viewers on how she was feeling, what workouts she had tried. Even if she was experiencing a bad day. It’s such a fluid, honest and incredible journey to follow, so if you haven’t already you can read through her 90 Day Journey here.
So, it’s now online. NO going back.
What do I want to achieve?
At the end of this 90 days, I want to have a more positive reflection on how I feel about myself. Along the way, I’d ideally prefer to lose a bit of weight. But, focusing on the health benefits rather than any aesthetic reason (although I’d love to squeeze into my size 10 jeans). Secondly, I’d like to break some bad habits which I have made since graduating from university and transitioned into full-time work life. Those include:
- Messed up sleeping patterns, going to bed stupidly late or too early and not being able to wake-up earlier.
- Not paying attention to my physical appearance. By that, I mean making myself feel presentable daily rather than once in a blue moon.
- Take away tendencies. Since moving out, ordering food in rather than having to cook something from scratch has been an easy decision.
- SNACKING – bad food!
- Lazy workouts. Going to the gym for 20 mins at a time.
- Bad spending habits, wasting money on takeaways, getting clothes which will most likely never fit and making the occasional coffee purchase in the morning waiting for the train.
Right now, I am not happy with the person I have become. Although, I feel a lot more on top of my anxiety and have great career prospects. My next goals getting on top of my life from a personal level. Confidence to help me with my career, help me with my hobbies and feel more carefree about going out at the weekend rather than an anxious mess.
Shall I be dieting?
NO. Personally, diets for me. They just do not work. I’m focusing on changing my lifestyle, not my relationship with food. Along the way, I will be picking up ‘dieting’ tips, and figuring out what works best for my body. On the other hand, I don’t want to massively restrict myself from what I am choosing to put into my body.
Understandably, for a lot of people out there this can be a very triggering subject. For that reason, I’d recommend if you are in that audience of individuals to not continue reading into this series. Although I do wish to share what I will be eating in a day, some days I may only post one or two meals to try to discourage this mentality.
Goals + Motivation
Ideally, one evening this week. I want to sit down and write up a list of target weights along with what reward I’ll achieve getting to that point. From chocolate or even a new bag, goals are really important to encourage that determination and drive to get when you achieve to be.
Tomorrow. I’ll write up my first weigh-in.
Goal weight – 8st
Approx. current weight – 10.5st
Scales can be very triggering for my past, deep down I know I’ve pushed a lot of weight since the beginning of the year. But, this doesn’t still fill me with dread. I’m not doing this for that anymore. By the end of this, I don’t want to fear the scales or putting my jeans on instead of joggers for work.
Here goes nothing! See you all tomorrow.